That was my irrational thought when we got to see Baby #2 for the first time yesterday.
Being pregnant for the second time around is definitely different. The first time around, a large--perhaps an idolatrous--amount of time was spent thinking about Silas: what it would be like to have a baby, how it would feel to be a mom, what he would look like, etc. I was daydreaming about him all the time; it was difficult to focus on anything else.
This time, I confess, I just haven't been thinking about the baby as much.
I feel a little guilty about it...especially when I think of how unfaithful I've been in praying for this little soul thus far.
It's certainly not intentional! I think the novelty of being pregnant just isn't there this time, and I'm staying busy with a certain delightful little boy. And I've been sicker and more tired than the first time around, which tends to make me a little self-focused.
BUT I really think the ultrasound yesterday was helpful! And I'm hoping that when I start to feel the baby move, it will start to sink in a little bit more.
We are SO excited about this baby. I mean, look how cute he/she is already!
Isn't it amazing?! This baby is only about an inch and a half long, and yet we can see this much detail. Look at those skinny arms and legs! I need to work on putting some meat on those little bones. It was so fun to see him/her moving around.
Our due date is officially February 7th. I figured it would be sometime between the 5th and the 12th. So that makes me 12 weeks along. Almost through that first trimester! Hooray!
The doctor said everything looks great, and we are so thrilled. It's funny, since I had my first appointment so late this time I was worried they were going to say I'm not pregnant after all. Glad those fears were unfounded.
Jess- Isn't it funny how our we start running to fears!? Keep praying for your little one! What a good way to focus on the Lord and His blessings. Hope these last few days of the first trimester go quickly! Miss ya!
ReplyDeleteJess! Congrats on ultrasound for baby #2. You wrote something that caught my eye: "I mean, look how cute he/she is already!"
ReplyDeleteI have no doubt that baby #2 will be adorable. Silas has set a high bar, but I'm sure baby #2 will be just as cute and snuggly. I hope you're feeling better, friend! Thinking and praying for you...
Just wait until you have #3. You will be so busy with 1 and 2 that it wont hit you your pregnant until you go to bend over or you bonk your tummy ect...! I do hope and pray that you feel better soon. Seeing the baby is always a blessing! If you need anything, please call me.
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Beautiful pictures!
ReplyDeleteYes, your baby is already so beautiful and God is so good!!!
ReplyDeleteaww i am so excited for you! i am due Feb. 8.. we are almost twins! i feel for ya, girl.. i have been soooo sick too! here's to hoping that we are both getting out of this stage!!!!
ReplyDeleteI felt the same way. I have been so busy with Asher and work, I haven't thought as much as I'd like too about Baby Girl. When I felt her moving on Friday for the first time, I literally started panicking and wanted to "put her back." Too late! :) It was just the realization that there is actually a baby in there, a baby I have no idea how to care for!
ReplyDeleteLittle Lugbill is adorable already :)
can't wait to meet the little sucker:)
ReplyDeleteWOW! That is amazing how much detail you can see for being only an inch and a half long...
ReplyDeleteIsn't God amazing, the detail and growth in such a short time. Your little baby had a heart beat before you even knew it was there!
ReplyDeleteI will be praying for you, the boys, and new baby!